to whom this may concern.

i dont know about you people, but when it comes to handling emotions, i fail, and i fail hard. i certainly have no idea what is it with people that could go around hurting other people, thinking that it is a great thing to do. It just occured to me that no matter how nice i've been trying to be, i would still end up getting hurt; slashed, torn and chopped.

so you have such significant influence in my life, and you think you can play me like a freaking toy?! it is lately that i came to realisation, you have definitely changed me in a certain way that i find it hard to accept. This whole thing has turned me into such an angry person, depressed and down. someone that i never thought i could be.

i blame others every now and then when the only person i've been upset at all along, is you. i suddenly felt the need to find other sources just so i could get my mind off anything that has got to do with you which also means, pretty much everything. are you even aware of what you've done to me? or you're somewhere else thinking that things have their own way of getting back to their respective places eventually?

i just cant live with the fact that you didnt deserve my trust all along and still dont. they say i should not hope for hoping can kill. but when all that's left is just hope, tell me what else could i possibly do?

As much as i want to put all of this behind, i still feel obliged to stay. yes, because i'm stupid like that. Also because i cant lie to myself no more. i sure hope that i could really say that i have totally given up on you out loud, but deep down i know i haven't. I haven't. and I just cant lie.:(

for all that has happened, its all entirely because of you