Just like a heart beating.

Spent some times with the people just now, just glad things are exactly like how it was left to be :) it's really surprising how a Lil of catching up could make my day just perfectly. Like every other boring days of my life, i have so much to whine, well excuse me for being such a pessimistic, but my messy life just won't let me be otherwise. :(

My life has been such a chaos simply because:

• for some reasons, my broadband just wont want to cooperate with me.
• referring to the above, i can't utilize the connection to the max, which explains why i can't download stuff that indeed, very essential in fixing up what's unfixed.
• after hours of downloading songs at a very odd hour, in which seems like a sufficient get away, i can't transfer them to my phone; simply cos i freaking misplace my usb cable. How messy i am? VERY.
• I can't find earphone either.
• My lappie has been producing this loud sound which i'd like to call it " running sounds". you know, it goes like "ngunnnnnggggggggggggggggggg........nggguuuuunnnnnggggggggggg." , and it's always ascending, NEVER descending. GAHHHH.
• There's so much unsettled business and i don't even know where to start from.:(
• I am so caught up in this entangled emotions of mine. i don't know how to get out :'(
• All i want to do is to run away. But i know it better than anyone else that running away will def not solve problems.

i wonder is this one of the many normal phases in live that people have to go through? Cos if it is, i don't wanna be normal.

I'm still giving you the benefit of the doubt. Just don't screw it this time, cos you've been doing it your whole life.I'm not bulletproof remember?